just frustrated to the extreme

im frustrated and angry right now... mommy called this morning fishing for information i guess...her and man had been talking about me and my plans and i despise being talked about.. it is a major trigger because it causes paranoia..it makes me think i am being picked on or made fun of...and it is frustrating and confusing.  i didnt lie. but i feel like i cant talk to anyone about anything because it will get back to her ... no matter what... i will just keep my silence because every fucking thing gets back to her..thats why i dont post truly on facebook because it gets back to her..nothing is safe from her..and i hate that..is it any surprise i am so paranoid???  any surprise that i dont talk a lot.. or share anything .. i dont feel safe .. maybe that is at the bottom of all of this...i just dont feel safe.. im glad she is moving..i really really am..