weekend

this has been a pretty good weekend ... relaxing ... ive been having some mood issues and have been feeling really angry and frustrated with things...i dont know why .. it was pretty bad on friday..but its eased up a little bit since then..but i got a lot of sleep.. like serious almost 5 hour nap today! which is why im still up right now lol..but i did laundry today and sarah and i went out for lunch and it was so good..i love going to chilis ! and i even got desert! my stomach is a little upset right now but i wouldnt trade today for anything..it was a nice day.  yesterday i went to the grocery store and im really not sure what i bought lol..i got waffles...a lot of waffles !   right now i just want sandwiches and well waffles ... i think my anxiety is up and thats when i end up eating the same things over and over...maybe ... im not eating completely gluten free right now...im trying to decide what i want to do with my eating..like i felt better not having gluten..i truly did ..but trying to stop this time around is so much harder...but i think if i can manage not to go overboard..i can manage..maybe not but ill have to see...im gonna be working on not getting fast food this week..and if i do good then we can go out for dinner ot something over the weekend.  i may need to leave my money at home !!! but i pack my lunch and things so i should be ok..just gonna have to remember to make myself eat in the morning before going to work...that is my downfall..and taking all the meds on an empty stomach makes me sick so i end up stopping and picking something up..but i know i am relying way to much on fast food ..

but i am having an issue with my side again...its a pain that comes and goes..sometimes its really bad and it hurts to move even a little bit..and sometimes its like a little twinge that im aware of but can work around ...every time it happens i get scared that its like my appendix or something..but all i get is the random pain..no fever, or vomiting or anything else..the area isnt swollen and if i press on my side it doesnt really hurt...im going to call my doc this week and talk to her about it. because im really not sure what to do..should i be more concerned?   i thought it was from like sleeping wrong or something ..because it is always my right side...sometimes lower and closer to my hip hurts and yesterday it was a bit higher and was radiating around my back and stomach when i moved...im a little concerned..but again i may not be as concerned as i need to be..ive explained away some serious medical stuff as nothing important..and i ended up in the stupid hospital...so ill call my doc and see what she can tell me..i refuse to look up anything on webmd because then ill just convince myself that im dying ..

oh and we are getting a kitten on wednesday...sarah said i can call him gizmo :)  im gonna go shopping for him on tuesday when i get off of work..im excited about the kitten but nervous to because well bounce and kai are possibly not going to enjoy a little ball of fluff...maybe they will..but hopefully they dont kill each other!! bounce is getting older and kai has so much energy..maybe a kitten will be good for him.

im moving the trip back a little bit and its going to be at the end of october now..which is fine..it will be cooler! and ill have more time to put money aside..hotels are not cheap lol..but it will just be less stressful planning and everything when i have more time and money to work with...so the trip will be in oct now..for sure lol..

but tomorrow is monday..back to the work week...tomorrow is anita too. hopefully this week is a bit less stressful than last week!