trapped

I'm feeling quiet..tired..a bit worn out with things I guess.Maybe it's the depression...I spent pretty much all of yesterday in bed sleep or just lay in  down. I did go to the store and sort of cook dinner..And then that was the extent of my energy it seems
 My first day at work was hard..it was restock day pretty much..first day and I got to spend it looking for where all this stuff goes.
I tried to keep a positive attitude..but it got harder when I couldn't find things..And had  to keep asking for help..I of course didn't have snacks and so I knew when I started to get cranky and frustrated  that my sugar,was low..but I didn't want to make a big deal about it because there is a young girl there with diabetes and her  sugar dropped during the shift and everyone was focused on helping her and so I didn't need to make a big deal about it. When I get some money next week ..I'll buy so stuff to take for lunch well snacks since I don't really get a lunch..I'm hoping my hours stay the same each week though. That would be nice. If I can just snag another day..but we will see how all that goes...

Sarah is out of the hospital..she got out on Wed...I'm glad she is out..she still may end up going to the crisis unit..but won't know that until next week...which has me thinking a mile a minute about everything and nothing...I'm just off..Just waiting...I did let her know I won't be comin  over when anetras there..didn't realize it was bothering me so much until she asked ..but it is bothering me...Sarah going  away is bothering me...but  it's not my choice is it..im supportive...but I have no answers..And that bothers me to.

I'm trapped in my head today....really really trapped