rough week

this has been a really really long and tiring week...work drained me majorly and i think the stress i was feeling from that made me stomach upset a couple days last week..i dont know...im trying to be careful with what i am eating of course...im randomly finding things to try though..this week it is chocolate chip muffins...i hope they are good, gluten free of course...i really hate how expensive the grocery bill has become..that is frustrating all by itsself...

but i saw the doc last week and im doing well on that front...ive lost 13 pounds since my last doc appt in april...so i guess it was maybe 3 weeks or so..i feel different..in some ways..i certainly dont have any more energy...but i guess im feeling better bodywise..its hard to explain..

work was hard in that..there is staff not showing up and not calling out....its rough with only 3 staff with the clients...especially when it is supposed to be 6 of us...busy and then havin staff arguing and yelling in front of the clients was awful and made me so tense and upset and it was sucky...im assuming the girl who didnt show will be fired which takes us down to 4 staff.and thats if everyone comes to work...ugh..so last week was just long and tiring..  i am excited though that we are going to the zoo on monday...ive never been to the zoo in richmond so it will be a fun trip..

i am noticing that i do not have a lot of down time to myself anymore...im not coloring or writing or anything really...i sleep and maybe cook..and help sarah..and that is my life..there is no time for anything else..and it is beginning to make me feel on edge ..like i just cant get enough time to regroup and calm down .. and get some of the pressure out of my mind..i feel like im overloading and there is not a release valve anywhere to be found...i still havent found a balance yet between work and home..and most days im to tired to even care ..but i am noticing it..and am aware of it..so i guess thats something...

that is all there is to talk about since im yawning and of course want to go to sleep..today has gone by really fast though...i did go to the grocery store today and tomorrow i have got to do laundry..or ill really have nothing to wear!