where do i go from here ?

well this has been an eventful week...and as it is coming to an end..i feel like i need to find some direction or something in my life..but the thing is..right now i dont want direction.. in all honesty..im tired of direction..i want a chance to do nothing for a little while..to get my self back on level ground..and i think im just going to focus on the holidays for now and getting through them...i know my stress and what not is always elevated this time of year and so maybe having more time to just not be expected to do anything is a good idea...i still have a job..i still have things to do...but i have more time during the day to get things done...but i want time to get my head in a better place..once again im wanting stabillity for my own issues..and then ill move forward into looking for another job..but im not going to stress myself out about it...i have paid all my bills for this month and now my attention is on other things...im tired but im ok with my current decisions.  and i might get a kitten... that particular decision is still in debate mode :)