fear

ive been having bad dreams...every night this week...every time they are filled with death and fear and im never able to save anyone..i cant even save myself...dreams about being at home..being in the hospital..trying my hardest and still failing miserably ...icant save my family, i cant save sarah..icant even save the cats...im awful and useless....i dont want to sleep and i am feeling incredibly anxious and afraid...im worried that i will lose everyone and everything..im worried that i will end up alone and lost ... and i dont know..i feel aimless right now..unsure of what it is that i need to do...im trying to find some sort of happiness but i just want to cry...i dont know what to do with myself ..