it may be a long long time in coming but today i am proud of myself..very proud of myself actually..i got my bank account paid off and fixed..ive paid all the bills...im going out to a party tonight with sarah and some new friends and i went out yesterday with coworkers. i have money set aside for the trip in oct..im feeling ok... i really am feeling ok..even though there are still a lot of feelings and things going on i am trying to make the best of it all..i had fun last night...i know ill have fun tonight..its big big things going on..who knew things would be as they are now???!!! who knew.. and my birthday is next week so i am trying all the harder to be happy about things.. i want it to be a good day..i want it to be a good week.
i want tacos :)
but im also being more careful with my eating..my stomach is calming down..i know today i will be eating pizza and cake and stuff cas of the birthday party and well im included in the birthday celebrations..but im not going to over do it. im going to try not to over do it lol... the thoughts of cutting come and go..but right now it seems i am looking for neutral terriorty with all the behaviors..im back on all of my meds...im going to work..im feeling ok..im doing stuff..little bits of stuff but still..im making friends..
i passed all the tests i had to take last week... i plan on catching up with my notes tomorrow so that i can start the week off right !
im feeling more positive. i hope it sticks around.
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so glad for you internet daughter! you are moving in the right direction! there are always some steps back but you have so many more steps forward because you are persevering and growing and moving in the right direction. love you and I'm glad to see how far you've come since I met you in that depression chat. Have a good birthday Nat.
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