Merry Christmas world :)
(My lovely Christmas roses from Sarah)
I am doing everything I can to keep my mood level...in times of stillness I can feel the sadness at the edges..I feel quiet..I feel lonely but I'm not alone. I'm with Sarah and it has been great...we talk and laugh and well I sleep..I swear I try not to but it just happens!! I may have been a pain in the butt yesterday because I wanted to open my gifts and kept being told no...you know I can be down right annoying but Sarah kept me in order and distracted..
We did Christmas over the phone with now and everyone..since I wasn't there and mommy sent my box here...I got kitchen stuff from man...gift cards that will be used for a date night ..clothes and bed stuff...Sarah got mg watercolor pencils and a sketchpad and a journal with a unicorn on it. :) definitely going to give the watercolors a try..I have been wanting to paint again so this is good..oh and I got some movies and other coloring stuff too... I'm happy.. I am..And grateful because I know I,have been borrowing so much money lately and still I got gifts..I wasn't expecting anything at,all but mommy still came through and got me stuff...a stuble hint to lose weight but I know I need to work on my health..And I'm actually going to..I afraid because of being sick lately.. I don't want to go back to the hospital..And so that means a couple things..but I'll write more about them later on..today is a happy day right. Movies and relaxing with Sarah today..I made a cake and I'll be making dinner later on...Well a late lunch..And just having another day to ourselves..
I just hate that my mood still over powers me .... :( I may need to talk to Courtney about my mood swings again....blah
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