i kept getting yelled at ...all this week ive been getting yelled at for something ..stupid stuff...they are not letting us do our jobs... and it
took a while to calm down the tears..and then i ended up frustrated
again..and just couldnt focus on completing notes..i was on sign out
yesterday..note to do..and was with the client who likes to flip over
her wheelchair..they made me switch rooms and she was not happy and so i
couldnt get anything done at all..i was a mess..i mean they are yelling
at me because i let a client use all the stickers and im being
wasteful..it was a client who hasnt been wanting to participate in
anything..and finally she does something and they demand i take the
stickers back..wtf...i didnt and she took her picture home...given i
didnt give her all the stickers...she happened to be sitting with them
and i was otherwise occupied and she kept adding things to her
picture...because im not coming up with enough activities..because i let
a client use a canvas with someone elses name drawn on it in pencil,
that has been in there forever...i let a client color on a stack of
construction paper and am again being wasteful..i do come up with
activities..i have given her lists of supplies that i need..and have
received nothing..but im told there is stuff upstairs...ok but im
expected to stay with the clients and keep them busy and they hide
activities upstairs and then swear we arent doing anything...yesterday
was just too much :(
i did get hugs from the two im trying to attach to..which did nothing
to help the attachment issues but did make me feel a little bit
better..im up now trying to work on missing notes...but again ..im
feeling so down and upset that i just dont want to even show up...but i
guess they would be expecting that...so ill show up...but the enjoyment
is slipping away...im trying to be a team player..i do what im asked to
do..and then some...and somehow i end up being yelled at...i dont
understand it at all..and i hate that i started crying ..i left at 4 yesterday...no staying late for anything and i didnt finish my notes either..right now i dont care if im taken off the schedule..im tired .... and they will be the ones struggling with coverage...not me..i wont get paid ..but ill manage... and i feel bad for even thinking that.... but yesterday i was feeling the urges to cut very strongly..i was really hurt and upset..and if im getting to that point then something is wrong...maybe this week is just a rough one...but im ready for friday at 4...i just want to go home..and stay home...
sarah totally made me feel better though because my new kindle showed up and i got to play with it..
2 comments:
Nat I'm having issues at work too. Really want to quit but am going to try to stay. I had a doctors note to be off all week because I'm physically ill from stress. I have a supervisor that has no respect and he is very rigid and I've been in trouble several times. Just know you're not alone if that helps at all
i hope things get easier at work for you also. im hoping that tomorrow is a good day for both of us.
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